Friday, August 31, 2007

Food Frustration

I am so sick of my food frustration. Life is just so busy this days. You know the routine you get up between 5:30 and 6 a.m. You rush to get ready, get your children ready and fed so you can run out the door, drop your kids off at school and get to work on time. Then we run around all day meeting everyone else's needs so we can pick our kids up, get them fed and off to practice of some kind. Right now it is football for us. Which is the worse time demand of all the sports my son plays. Whew! I get tired just thinking about it.

How did we get in this life at light year speed? The busier we get the worse we eat, the less we exercise, the less we pray, the less time we really have with the people that we love. I feel like that crazy blonde, Susan Powder - "Stop the Insanity".

For years like twenty or better I have been living on full steam ahead and now I am paying the price. I am overweight, my adrenals are shot, my system runs sluggish and all those things that I used to work don't anymore!

I always knew I should take better care of myself. I switched from regular coke to diet coke. No calories you know! They kept flashing all those commercials about how happy and thin I would be. Is anyone experiencing that lie? And let's not even talk about what that aspartame has done for my nervous system, sugar cravings, etc..... But I'm not bitter!

I quit smoking in the late 80's. Considering the price of cigarettes I'm glad I did that. Then I started trying vitamins. For some reason when you quit smoking you get focused on being healthier. I started running too but that didn't last long. I would read about all kind of benefits and go buy them. I never do anything small. I would go buy 10 different that had to be taken 3 times a day. Well the first week would go okay. Toward the end of the first week I would start skipping doses, you know "I am busy". Then the skipping doses get more frequent, then it's a whole week, then I give up. I've done this for years. I don't even want to think how many thousands of dollars I have wasted with this routine, never finishing a complete bottle. I came close a time or two. But failure was always looming. Then the next part is you keep the in the cabinet because "someday" you are going to start taking them again. I can't count how many times I have moved these "someday" from one house to another.

Then there are the times I decided to . You know all the antibiotics in food, herbicides, pesticides, etc. So I would throw out all the "bad" food in the cabinet and go to the "healthy" grocery store and stock up. I would buy all this organic, fresh produce and free range meat. Of course it would spoil in the refrigerator while I was busy and grabbing fast "they call it food" junk. So let's not count how many thousands got wasted on that plan either. All that "good" food requires time to prepare. I've been a little shy of time for a long time.

All these experiences leave me more and more discouraged about , , being thin, being happy. All those things go together in my mind for some reason.

Now there is all this media about our tainted food supply. It is becoming more imperative to eat a better quality of food. Industry wanting more money has literally taken the life out of our food. We'll talk more about that at another post.

Look around we are fat and sick as a nation. I have spent the past few months watching how fat people are. It used to be a few people but now it's everywhere. Now I am amazed when I see someone that looks fit. The other part is this "fat" issue is getting to the younger population all the time.

I WANT MORE! I want a life where I am not running around like a crazy person, where I can eat a healthy diet, where I can wiegh what body should weigh, where I can feel great most days.

Stay tuned for more on this personal challenge.